| I love it when spring comes two weeks after snow fall
I often imagine myself retelling my life story to a tv talk show host and finding the humor amongst all the drama
Who do you see when you look in the mirror? I don't see myself grown up and becoming anyone, instead I see myself when I was a child because I secretly still imagine that this world is my playground
My mind is always finding inspiration for stories that can only be born through observation of the everyday life
Sam and Dean are my heroes (if you know me you already know who those two guys are)
Every time it rains I think how much fun it would be to just run and dance while everyone around you is in a hurry with their umbrellas and squeaky boots giving curious glances as they pass by
Listening to Beatles songs brings me back to my childhood and always gets me out of a bad mood
My entries seem like lists but this really is my train of thought spilling out of me
.....hope you don't mind
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| So my name is Lauren, I'm 19 years old, I'm a Leo and I've never been in love. I like indie films, lasagna, and falling asleep to the sound of rainfall. I'm about to be a junior in college, I have a job at an ice cream place, I love my family and this particular year for me has and will continue to be one very crazy time full of wedding arrangements, tuxes, bridesmaids dresses, flowers, proposals, the rings, and smiley happy people. So now that both my older sister and my older brother are finally engaged to their long time significant others, it leaves me the middle child, still single, and being their for both of them as they make necessary preparations for that next step in their lives.
As delighted as I am for both of them, all this happiness and wedding bells ringing around me, it only makes me feel like I'm missing something in my life. It doesn't take a rocket scientist to know what I'm talking about. I'm a patient person though and who knows, maybe I'll meet the perfect guy next year or even next week. I don't know but when you're surrounded by all this love, you can't help but wish you could have even a small taste of what they have. To be in love with someone and knowing that you'll spend the rest of your life with them. You can't buy that kind of happiness and I guess I'm just grateful I have older siblings that I can look up to who demonstrate that kind of devotion for one another.
One day I hope to meet someone who will share the same dreams as me. Because right now that's my dream.
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